Do you ever wake up and ask yourself: What the hell am I doing with my life?
I ask myself this question more often than you’d expect and I rarely feel like I know the answer. I don’t have set plans. I’m really just winging this and taking life as it comes.
I do know a few things for certain, namely that I will always aim to inspire others to try veganism and that I will never settle. Life is too short to live in a situation that’s anything less than what I want it to be. If I don’t like my situation in life for any reason, I will take steps to rectify it and never stop until I’ve succeeded in making a change.
Settling is impossible. I am truly happiest when I’m on the move or visiting a place other than my home. Though I’m not sure where I consider my home, and I never know what to say when people ask me where I’m from….
I know this life is the right decision for me even though I have my doubts from time to time. I think these doubts come from the unhinging process. I’ve unhinged myself from the normal script of life. I’m not choosing to work in a 9-5 job, or to be married with children, or to live in the same town my entire life.
I came across this quote in a Ted talk, and it really speaks to me:
“There are thousands and thousands of people out there leading lives of quiet, screaming desperation, where they work long, hard hours at jobs they hate to enable them to buy things they don’t need to impress people they don’t like.” —Nigel Marsh
That is what I don’t want to do, ever! I let go of all the regular comforts of home. I’m choosing to live on other peoples’ couches (or guest rooms, if I’m so lucky) and even live out of a car or on the street if necessary. I got rid of all my stuff: my clothes, shoes, books, cooking supplies, everything! I choose a life of simplicity and uncertainty instead.
So when some of my friends or people I meet tell me I’m crazy for doing this, crazy for selling everything, for quitting work, for choosing to be nomadic, I try to remember that being crazy isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Perhaps they are only calling me crazy because they can’t imagine living this way, or because they simply lack the courage to risk it all. (Thanks to my friend Todd for reminding me about this, and inspiring me to start this whole social media presence in the first place.)
Yesterday I read an article about five things you may regret at the end of your life. This list originally came from Bronnie Ware’s blog, who also has a book titled, “The Top Five Regrets of the Dying.”
The top two regrets are:
- I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
- I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.
I don’t want to have these regrets when I’m on my deathbed. At that point, what could I do? I would have to die knowing that I wasted so many precious years of my life trapped in the rat race and worrying about what others thought of me.
Have the courage to live the life you want. Take risks, make mistakes, learn from those mistakes and keep working toward your goal.
If you could change anything about your life, what would you change?
Are you taking steps to change it?
Why or why not?